Wisdom of the Pause

When this whole virus thing started, I  was remembering a longing I was getting over and over again last year. I  would trumpet things like, “bring on the next mini ice age!” because I wanted something (some existential threat) to stop us in our tracks, or at least slow us down.

Listening to social media and taking in the topics we were dealing with culturally, I kept noticing how much division there was everywhere; how polarized opinions were; how dug in people’s points of view were; how divisive so-called inclusive ideologies were, etc. Everywhere, people were seeing separation, amplifying separation, creating separation.

For me, from a spiritual and psychological perspective, separation is the root cause of all our suffering; our belief that we are separate from the divine, from nature, from each other…

So yeah, deep down I kept craving some unifying force. On the surface though, it felt more like irritation and a wish for people to sit down and shut up! To just STOP!

And here we are.
Stopped.

And as much as part of me is anxious about the bills, there is much larger part of me that is smiling and exhaling deeply right now, as though this feels right or needed on some level. And before anyone takes that the wrong way, no, I’m not blind to the suffering and the loss of life. I’m just sharing that there is a part of me that isn’t hung-up on my human sense of right and wrong, nor limited by my human needs. That part of me feels wise and intuitive, and is excited about what this ‘cosmic pause’ might bring forth in us.

I hope it cools our monstrous sense of entitlement.
I hope it restores humility and gratitude.
And a sense of our interconnectedness.

Since starting DD, I’ve marvelled at how literally I am supported by you, by this dance community. You literally pay my rent. I, like so many self-employed people, experience a very immediate version of that reality. But whether you live/work in a large system, or a small one, the fact of our interconnectedness is the same. And I think we collectively need to wake up to this on ever deepening levels because it is only our belief in separation that could cause one person to harm another, or could cause a species to behave as though it was not part of the whole.

So for me, I dedicate this Pause to Mama earth, to nature, and ask her for forgiveness for our collective sense of entitlement, for our loss of humility and for our loss of kinship with her.

In this current stillness, I feel her smiling.